Someone I Love

I was once alone and seeking for someone to love, someone to bring back the life that I lost for a long time, someone who would make me smile even I had lots of problems, someone who would make me laugh and cherish the moments with, someone who sees perfection in an imperfect person that I am.

It was years that I found that someone who would capture my feelings. Slowly I realized that I was falling in love with someone, slowly my heart starts beating fast whenever I see that someone, slowly I was believing that I would grow old with someone, slowly I knew that my faults and weaknesses where accepted by someone, slowly I felt changes in my life with that someone, slowly we connected and loved each other.

It was then that I knew that loving someone is not as easy as I knew it would be. I have made mistakes that will be forgiven but not forgotten, I learned to cry again with the pains that we are having, I tremble in fear of losing someone I love, I cast myself to seclusion as I think of the bad things that are happening, I accepted all the painful words every time we argue, I wished our problems would be resolved.

It came to the point of being separated with someone that I love. It is because with all of the imperfections in our relationship, mistakes, promises broken, time wasted, fear and above all the lost of love from someone.

With all of what we have gone through, with fun and laughter, with joy and love, but mostly aches and pains, I never thought of giving up, I never thought of giving up what I felt for that someone to somebody else, even knowing that someone have fallen out of love with me and do not trust relationships would work out in the long run.

It hurts every moment when I think of this, but I never wanted to let go, I never wanted to give up for that someone who I fell in love the most. I still have that hope that we would be together again, I don’t know how and when, it’s just that I know.

But I always ask myself, when would this pain end, when would it be just us and no one else, when would that someone finally use words that would not hurt and not harsh words that cuts down through my throat, when would we share fun and laughter again, and when would we share the joys and not the pains, and when would we share our love with each other again.