Being Alone

Staring at a white wall seems so dull and boring. As I was alone for most of the day, I felt how sad it is to have no one beside me. There is no one to talk to, or just listen to. I didn’t even want to eat ‘coz I got no one to share the food that I would have.

Then I remembered, after I transfer to a new place, I would be alone. I would have no one to talk to but myself. I would be sleeping alone again in my room. I guess I forgot already how to. It is not fun when you are alone, you would feel unhappy, depressed, and lonely.

It is not sharing one bed in a room, it may be two or three beds in a room. It is the midnight talks and laughs that make your day end a little bit better after a long tiring day at work. You would just feel better, you would have someone to be there for you when you need some help.

For me saying this is unusual, I want to be independent and I was, until you get used to something other than independence. I did what I wanted to do in my life, I did what I know what is right, and I did what I ought to do. But being independent, doesn’t mean you would just be alone in your life. You need someone ‘coz in the time that you need help, you would need someone.

Now, as my day ends. I am worried ‘coz I know the time is ticking that I would be alone and no one to run to when I need help. I hope my fate changes and I would not be alone and that is the only thing I have right now… Hope!