Looking for My Life...

My life when I was young was great because it was all about me. I almost got everything I wanted. I had a great education, played games I wanted to do, and made friends to anyone I wanted to befriend with.

When I knew I wanted to be independent, I was strong-willed and vibrant. I did what I can do to make my life a success. I made decisions on my own that empowered me to look for something bigger and better than my life that I am having.

When I knew how to love, it wasn’t easy. I really never know how to take care of someone besides me. I thought it would be easy, but I was wrong. Taking care and loving someone was difficult. It made me realize that there is happiness beyond being alone, but I never knew that heartaches would be so harsh when someone leaves you for someone else.

I want my life back. I lost the strength of making my own decisions, and now other people are making decisions for my life. I lost the happiness in my heart, and now other people are digging me dipper until I can’t see the light.

Things have changed in my life when I learned how to love and eventually until I was left alone. Maybe the blame is on me or not, but it doesn’t matter who is to blame, what matters is my life is my life and only God has the control for my life and nobody else.