At the Bus Stop...

When I was sitting alone, it brought back memories in my life and someone close to my heart, she was my girlfriend. It brought back the memories when I left her and continue my job outside of the country and rely on long distance relationship to work. In the end, it didn't work out.

I told her I was coming back, I told her one time, two times, three times and more. But it was too long and too hard for her to wait for me. It was a lie that I never came, but I would not let myself be a liar for the rest of my life to her. I came back and left my job to be a couple again.

It was a failure all along as we never had a chance to be together again, as she found someone better than me. I lost control and never really knew what I wanted in my life after that. My life was a total wreck. Things for me was not going my way in my life and career.

And I found myself thinking again, if I was with someone else, will my fear end of losing her? Will someone be with me for the rest of my life? Maybe or maybe not, but one thing is for sure. I hope there would be someone. Or it would just be something that would linger for the rest of my life.