a conversation...

I had this conversation with a friend and gave me few advises in my life... primarily in my relationship. It started out like as normal as it possibly can, by asking me if I'm back in my old relationship, and I could have said "yes", but it was still a "no". I casually said we are just friends now, and my friend told me that hopefully I can find a perfect girl for me soon.

Then, I told her that I might just be satisfied being a single, because I can do whatever I can. No one can tell me this and that, yes or no, it's all about my decisions. Anyway, I told her that I am tired of looking for someone...

After that, the advises came one by one...

1. A man dies when he stops hoping!

It's true, I may have died already. It's been a struggle, pains, lies and secrets. It's what I had to endure, so why will I hope for something that I might face the same things over.

2. Find a girl who is willing to stay with you when you are down and have nothing, rather than a girl who can only remember you and love you when you have everything (like riches and dimes).

For most of the people they would find someone like this, for richer or for poorer, but unfortunately for me... it's still a no show. Once I see her definitely, it would be special.

3. It's lonely most of the times... God have plans about this thing called love, I don't know what it is but I know it would be the best.

It's been a lonely year of 2012 and early 2013 for me and I hope that I would see what God planned for me about this thing called love within this year.

4. Don't look into your past, you might not know your future wife is just around the corner and you don't notice her.

I am stuck with my past... moving on is what seems to be the right choice. I feel there is no progress, it's all but false hope. I just need to wake up and see what the future brings to me.

5. It might not be perfect, but at least you can guarantee that she would not leave you no matter what.

Yes, I know what it feels being left... I know and I can still smell it.

6. Open your eyes and see the real thing... Wait for the right one and you'll find happiness that you ever wanted for. You deserve someone simple yet loving, but not someone who is glamorous, money grabber and materialistic.

It's true! What I need in a relationship is happiness, simple yet loving. Someone who can be happy for what ever we have.

And her advises for me are a wake up call, if you will... I know all of these things, but I was stuck with what I have and never did I take a chance to look for someone. Because, maybe, the one I am waiting for have someone already that I just am blind, numb and dumb to accept it.

I just want a happy and satisfying relationship... not perfect... but simple, yet loving!