I'd Rather Be Honest

One of the things I value is honesty and once someone lies to me, then it is hard for me to trust that person again. Well, valuing honesty, I had to be honest to people I learned to love. Whether or not the outcome will be a good thing or bad thing. It is not hard for me to be honest, but being honest and telling that I love someone is the complete opposite. Usually, I keep it to myself and just go with the flow, hoping that in the end my love will fade.

I confessed my love to a friend before, got rejected, and never did she want to talk to me again ~ lost a friend, a very dear friend. I said sorry for the wrongs I did, and the same happened ~ lost a huge a part of me. Losing people I learned to love is hard and I had hoped that when I tell someone again, even I get rejected, I wont be ignored.

Well, I just did! I confessed I liked someone. It was weird because at a few seconds my friend sat still, but in the end everything was back to normal. Well, that is what I think. It's just the first day of opening up to my friend. I know we will not be together in end, but I just wanted to tell the truth. I just wanted to be honest.

I hope our friendship will last, I guess it would be awkward from now, but I hope you will not fade away from me because I don't want to lose someone again. I wish I hadn't liked you, but I do. I don't know why, but what I know, I learn how to like you even more than yesterday. For now, I thank you for being there and not running away from me.

I'd rather be honest than keeping my heart every single day. Truth be told, we are just friends and nothing more than that now and in the future. We are just not meant to be and will ever be.