No Matter What...

It's always a great feeling of having someone coming into your life and be an inspiration to you. Someone who can fill all the holes and fix the broken pieces in your heart. Someone who is willing to be with you no matter who you are. It is always a feeling I long for. 

But no matter how I love someone dearly, I would still be alone. Maybe I am destined to be alone, just feeling the sense of happiness with someone I love is always what I treasure. No matter who I love, it would stay the same in the end, I would still be alone.

Now, the feeling is great, but I still feel I am alone. I know it is not right for me love you, because I know the love I give is always to be forever and it will not be for us. I don't know how to let go, because I don't want to. You just make me feel happy always even if you do something wrong to me. 

No matter what, in the end of this, I will be alone. But, until this lasts, I want to thank you for being there and staying close. This feeling will hopefully fade, because it would hurt me when you finally say no and you have to move on. I don't want you to go, but I know you need to... in time. Hoping you would still stay close... even you are far away.

No matter what, I still long for a married life with someone who can make me feel complete and in return I can make her feel complete too. It's weird, but honestly I still long for her... in the end.