When will this end?

It's been a few weeks that I have lost the trust of my friend and I don't know if I'm still welcome. I am still hoping for something good in the future, but when will this feeling of regret end?

I feel tired of all of this. I just hope I can turn back time and leave you alone, but I didn't. Things are just meant to be and I don't know how will this go, if we will ever be friends again or not. Because I really want to be back. I'm trying to forget all the times we were together, but I just can't for now.

I know you want me out of your life. But I just don't know why I still feel the sense that you will still forgive me. I just can't go on living like this until I know, I will not see you ever again.

Now, I ask myself when will this feeling end?