When I lost feeling love...

Let's go back to the year that I risked everything and failed. I thought I found love but love was not there. It was a never ending struggle of finding my way to her life and all I had was nothing but blank stare. She knew who I was, but all those back and forth talks of seeing each other didn't push through. 

For a few months now, I followed my mind to forget the past once and for all. As my heart was still hoping, my heart then realized that my mind was correct all along. I failed to love and now I need to shut everything, all my emotions, even being a friend to her.

Though it has been years now, as well, that I am looking to be in a new relationship and leave the past behind, I just can't find anyone. And now, I really don't feel if I can love. I don't feel that I am even worthy to be loved. I don't feel that someone will like me much more love me. 

So, I will just shut and forget all these love and focus on something else. That's it!