It Looks Like I'm Having Fun!

The past few months of being sorry for myself for assortment of things! Now, it looks like I'm having fun! Things have already pilled up on me on what is bring down... work, friendship, career, relationship... or lack there of, and basically my life. It has been a roller coaster ride for sure, not knowing how to get out of the mess I got into and whether my life will be better with someone or just being alone. Yeah! All of these are just random thoughts now that is keeping my life out of place!

But, what keeps me having fun is just being me... Making people crazy because of me, well sort of! Things turned around just a few days ago, a sad one, for a friend... Though it bothers me, it gives me a relief that I needed. Not for my friend, but of me and which doesn't even concern him a bit. Just a metaphor of my life.

As I look to all the things that concerns me, I always assured myself one thing! I will always be happy no matter what happens. In the end, even with the struggles I am having, I will keep smiling and be happy for myself because I am alive, and I can do something better to make my life worthwhile. I have been this guy who is always alone, well much better... Independent! And a happy one! I have created my life that even there are things that bothers me, I would not overthink of it. I would just stop for awhile and move on! If I can't solve it now, I'll just let the course of time to fix it. If I don't have any solution for a problem, then I just move on and do something else.

People that I met in the past asked me this question, why am I stuck on where I am and how can I handle all these things (problems)? My simple answer is... I don't overthink of the problems! That's it! As long as I love what I am doing... I will do it! If there are people trashing me... Let them... Because I really don't care! I'll just let my work talk and that's always what I do.

I'm not sorry, for not being sorry for people who hate me... Because, my life doesn't revolve around them. My life is an on going process, along the way I make mistakes and I apologize, along the way I make enemies, along the way I make bad calls... but along the way I will do something good, along the way I make true friends, along the way I make great decisions. And that is what I call my life.

I always keep the story of 'carrying a backpack' to remind me that there is just too much for you carry in your life, maybe it's time to unload what makes you feel heavy in mind and in your heart! Keep moving forward with makes you happy!