Because I Love You

I have done crazy things in the past that made who I am today. I made some mistakes and learned from it as well. I dealt with problems on my own and blamed myself for things that I created my own destruction. I know I hurt you in a way and would probably not leave that in your mind. But, what I know is when I saw you it was nothing but just smile on my face.

I told you before I had a girlfriend, well sort of. I never pursued you because I thought my life with someone else would be forever, but in the end I was left behind. It was hard for me to move on, because what I feel about relationships is too deep that I really get hurt when it ends. I thought it would be, but now I am alone and have been lost for a few years now.

You know, I was so happy that you came into my life as a friend. But the thing is, I feel the pain when you are with someone else. I can't be jealous, because I have no right to, it's just how I feel. Something that always stick to my mind is when you tell other people that no one takes you seriously.

You just don't know, that I am serious about you years ago, but I just ruined it for all the wrong reasons. I am serious about me being with you. I am serious that I will take care of you no matter what. I am serious that I will make mistakes and you will not like me for those, but I will make it up to you. I am serious that even before that I love you, I just can't tell you then. It is because, I knew that I was not the right guy for you then.

 I am not writing this now because what is happening in your life right now. I am writing this because when I saw you again a few months back, I knew that I was still in love with you. And I was thankful that you still offer your hands in friendship. Now, I am asking your hands not to be friends, but to be as one.

Right now, only God knows how much I wanted to be with you. Only God knows that I am serious about you. Only God knows how I really feel about you. So, would you want to know how much I love you?