Why I Don't Want...

It's been around 5 years that I never dated someone and it was because I was caught up in the dream that I would be back with the person I thought loved me. I had no regrets for the years that passed even I had opportunities to be with someone else, I neglected them. So, why now I write about my old relationship again, that has been long gone to no affect on love on me but it breaths disgust.

I always thought as she told me that a friend gave her the idea that I am not coming back to be with her and this why I was left out of the blue. It was my fault that I was late, I wanted to keep my promise but my work came in my way. But in the end, I left the company. I left the company for her. I got a good job, a great position, a good pay... and I left all what I nurtured for years to be with her. 

Then when I finally left the company and saw her again after a few months I was away, her friend again told a story that I came back because I can earn more and not for her. Now, look where I am? I am not there anymore and I didn't even like working in there. So, why the hate? Because I proved your friend wrong, then your friend gave this idea? Well, that's great because it's just bullshit.

Now, I hate talking to you. You know why? Because I always remember your friend, but the worse thing is, another story is lingering in my mind. The story that you just made up a friend, but it is actually you telling me that I went back not because of you and it's because of a better pay. Yes! I feel it was you who gave those statements. It was you who gave those reasons to me and not a "so-called" friend who never even existed. 

Why am I writing this? Because, I hate it when you are talking to me until now. Asking me how am I doing? For what? Yes, I said WE WERE soulmates! But now, I don't think so. You have lied to me time and again. You have manipulated me and the wrongs that I have done and things I am not supposed to pay, I am paying. 

Why I don't want to talk to you is I will always remember the hatred. The hatred that you lied to me all these years. So, why? Why would I want to talk to you when I always see is HATRED.