When You Don't Feel Like Celebrating

It went to as a normal day for me. Wake up, take a bath, have breakfast, work, have lunch, work, go home, have dinner and sleep late at night. This is the most regular day I spent November 12.

As the passing of my Lola, I told myself that I will not be celebrating my birthday. I never wanted to enjoy the day because it breaks my heart that I was not able to come back home and see my Lola for the last time. There are reasons, but what I wanted was just have a normal day.

It was, the only thing different is that I was sad and making myself happy the entire day. I worked and worked, but I was not in the mood. I chat with a few friends and family, and it made gave life for my day. It was as normal as any other day. It is not by chance but choice.

I never expected it that it would work out the way I wanted to. I was happy but confused at the same time, I never did imagine what I pushed through before my birthday did happen. It ended with what I expected and it was a blessing that it passed through like that.

Now, is the 13th, I look forward for another year of my life. Hopefully happier and healthier. Hopefully I can fulfill the dreams I have. I deserve so, because I have a heartfelt burning desire to create my own destiny.