Month-End Reflections (December 2015)

My month-end reflection is late for a few days, I had no choice as I was stuck in Mellaca for 1 month. Well, it's better late than never.

As 2015 ends comes a new year that I am hoping that it would better. 2015 is a year where I managed to deal with threats to my work, enjoy the companion of others, learn new things I have never done before, experienced new challenges in my life, investing money and time, full of hope and full of enjoyment.

I do hope it will continue this year of 2016! So, looking forward... I am filled of excitement to the year ahead as I will be ending my struggles for the last year and will be creating a new life after. I just can't wait for the year to end, though it just started.

Why Am I Here?
I am here in an unknown territory meeting new faces and learning new things from the people around me. I never thought I would be here, the place, the time, and the way I ended the year was not the one I was expecting. Truly God knows hows to give me smile to enjoy my life before the year closes, He shared with me His grace by teaching me how to love again, even for just this month, knowing that my feelings needs time to heal and time to love.


What Did I Learn This Month?
I learned how I can be open in loving again. I know the feelings I had will not be a long time running, but it was more than enough to know that I can still love after being hurt. God gave me a gift of loving and felt it this month. I know she would be gone, I know she would not be my forever dear, but what I know is that I fell in love with her. She gave a reason for me to smile and work every day. She gave me a reason to enjoy my life and be happy again. For a long time, I was just enjoying the ride, but now, I miss her, now, I look forward to seeing her because I fell in love with her.


Am I Carrying An Excess Baggage In This Month That Can Be Dropped?
This month was nothing short of greatness, but what I can drop is being a nicer person in general. I know for a fact that I can be rude and nasty, I can just be irritated with small things. I think being a nicer person would not hurt me, being a nicer person will be good for my health, being a nicer person will bring me closer to happiness in my life.

What Is The Greatest Achievement I Did This Month? 
Being in the operations again for the longest time, the greatest achievement I can say is working back in the operations with passion, enjoying the job I learned to love. Another one is making new friends, I never thought that I can be so open this month to meeting new people without any barriers on me. I was enjoying the company of others, I was enjoying the talk with new friends and colleagues. I never thought that in the span of one month, I freely enjoy meeting new people.

What Is the Biggest Time Sink I Did This Month?
I just can't think of one, as I was working long hours and I don't know I was unproductive this month. Well, I can say that it is also my work as I didn't have any time for myself. I forgot how to enjoy the day without thinking of work. So, probably the biggest time sink is my work for this month.

What More Should I Do For Next Month?
Have more time for myself. Well, spending the time for work for most of the month, I needed some time off from work. Enjoy my life to the fullest as I didn't have much time for it for the month of December. Though I enjoyed the time at work, I still need time to be me, to just spend time for myself without thinking of work or anything for that matter. I just need a time off... Well, I can just take my annual leave for this month! Hahaha...

Who Did I Help This Month?
Last month, I helped a friend about family matters and now it's a different friend but about family matters again. Well, it's all about the parents and my friend. It was not smooth sailing for my friend having a life she chose with a different life her parents wants her to have. She decided to be independent, she decided in her life that she can support herself and it was brave of her to being what she is now. Even so, she misses her family, she still stayed strong and capable of doing things that anyone can be proud of. I just hope she can learn to bring down her ego and call her parents to say thank you for what they have taught her.


Whom Should I Say "Thank You" This Month?
I would like to say thank you the the 3 beautiful ladies I met this month. First, I would like to thank S. I would like to thank her because she gave me a reason to laugh and enjoy the company of a friend. S is a true person who surprised me, though now she ignores me, I still thank her for being true to me. Secondly, I would like to thank my lil-sis, why? She taught me that it's not all about love in knowing another person, we can be close without going beyond friends. She taught me of being true to yourself and being as wild as you can be and to be strong in life. Lastly, I would like to thank foodtruck girl, she gave me a reason to smile again and again. Though I don't know her name, she was such a jolly person that you will enjoy looking at and never be bored. She is a keeper. She is someone I can fall in love with. She gave me a reason to fall in love again.