Expect the Unexpected

Life has always been such whirlwind and you would just need to expect the unexpected. These couple of weeks has been such an amazing ride, though the past few days were dragging and draining me. I am enjoying the company of someone I feel comfortable with, it's such a good feeling of being true to yourself and being brave of telling that you are falling for her. Though it was not an outright rejection, I am happy because it's always the friendship that keeps us enjoy our company now. I had my passion become to a reality, though not as a profession, but a love for it turned me to someone who can inspire someone to do what I do.

Now, I believe is the right time to be happy again. Now, I believe is the right time to share the moments with someone. Now, I believe is the right time to correct what is wrong. Now, I believe is the right time to open my heart. I learned it the hard way, looking for answers, but the fruits of my labor and the prayers has been answered. Just a a month ago, I prayed to have peace of mind and find someone I can be for the rest of my life. I have been alone for a long time and had been broken for more than half a decade. Though we are not together, I feel happy and blessed, more than being in a relationship.

I have always been passionate, but irresponsible at times. I forget at times that people need space and sometimes they need you to be there. I failed at this and I don't know if I can redeem myself to be there when I am needed and stay away when it is needed. I know I have weaknesses, I know I have faults, but it's not always the good things, it's not always the good traits, it includes all of me, even the bad side of me. I always feel threatened when it comes to relationship, I am jealous of things and people around the people I learned to like and love. Though it shows my sincerity, it also shows my dark side. It's not about trusting who I love, it's about wanting more time with someone I hold dearly, and when I am ignored, I feel left out. I feel alone.

With who I am, you need to accept me. My passion, my love, my weakness. All parts of me and not a few of who I am, because when God created me and you, we were imperfect, but we can be perfectly matched at His right time. I am truly blessed in the most unexpected way. You made me find the smile I never thought will be there again.