Back to the Drawing Board

It was like a week of learning how good it was to have someone in my life who makes me overly happy with the things I enjoy doing most of the times. It brings back the passion to what I am doing and makes me feel important to someone else's life. I guess she was right when she told that let's start as friends first. Well, I don't even know if there is a friendship now. A lost ship again in my life that keep sailing away from me and never to see her again.

So, it's back to the drawing board for me and think of searching for that one who can make me feel important and not ignored and neglected. I want life, I want enjoyment, I want happiness, I want commitment. I guess it's hard for me to find someone, because I am not that guy that a girl will be drooling about. What's the point of me searching when I know the people I am willing to love always turns away from me.

Well, I guess I need to be rich to get a someone who will love me, not because of me, but because of my money. Not a good deal, but I'm fine as long as I have something important in my life which is money. Basically, I am just annoyed of how my life is going right now and I'm just not enjoying every single second of it. I guess really, it's better for me to be single the rest of my life as I can enjoy my life. Really enjoy it!