Month-End Reflections (August 2016)

This was the month that I was supposed to go back home to the Philippines and pursue some changes in my life, but with work it had to wait. With that, a few things that I wanted to have this month was not given that would assist me in changing my life. So, it was a blessing in disguise that I didn't go back and work to open a new outlet in my work. Well, this gave path to what I would be sharing on my month-end reflections for August. It was an uninvited change that I had to take, a detour to what I have planned but it's God's plan that I stay here for awhile and it was for the better. Meeting new lives, new faces, new people that made my month a meaningful one.


Why Am I Here?
As I thought that I would be pursuing my ventures back home, it didn't happen for several reasons. So, this month was not about my ventures, but about meeting new people that would be part of my short lived life. I had reached my limit with people who owed me money and I need to stir up a few things to make things happen as I had my plans. Likewise, I had to deal with delay of salary for this month. And what I wanted was to keep myself busy and meet new people to be at ease and to think of a brighter day for me. And it was good ending to my month meeting at least one more person to make me smile.


What Did I Learn This Month?
With all the negatives in my life, there would be a hidden gift that God would give. With all the negative things that happened in the first few days of the month, it became better in the end with a few people that I knew made things possible to make me know there is light at the end of the tunnel. Though my problem with those people who are rats about what they owe me, new connections at the end of the month made it clear that there are still people who can make me forget those who are rats in this world.


Am I Carrying An Excess Baggage In This Month That Can Be Dropped?
I guess I need to carry again the excess baggage until these rats give me back my money. It's a hard-earned money that I have planned for my future. Well, once they pay their debts it's all over. From there, this baggage will be gone and these rats would not be welcome into my life again. I have dropped a lot of people in my life, some dropped me off, but life goes on. I need to carry on this burden longer than I wanted to, but I have no choice. So, let's see before the end of next month, if these rats pay up.


What Is The Greatest Achievement I Did This Month? 
Enjoying and meeting new people in my life. Once these rats leave me, I hope the new people in my life will not turn up like to be one of them. I value friendship, but once you betray my trust, it's all over. No matter how you apologize, my trust for you is gone. Building trust with me is easy, but destroying my trust with you is fatal. I have people apologized and I sarcastically accept, well just to show, but then again I really don't care. Well, my achievement this month? Is meeting new people and building trust on them.


What Is the Biggest Time Sink I Did This Month?
Well, I have not much of a time sink this month, other than my work. I didn't have much rest this month and the most of my time spent was at work. Working day and night, have a couple of rests in between, just to go back at work. I have rather spent my free time at the first week of the month, blasting these rats and at the end of the month, meeting new people. So, the time I spent for this month was enriching for me. Well, I hope next month would be less of work and more of "ME" time.


What More Should I Do For Next Month?
Continue to think of my future endeavors. I have been thinking of leaving for good, and thinking of a better future of me. I am thinking of a better life for me and I have been contemplating of my decision to having this contract to be my last one. I have been tired of people who are not worth fighting for. I have been tired of people thinking they know it all. I have been tired of people are just plain ____. I guess I need to think of better ways to fulfill my life.


Who Did I Help This Month?
I guess it's the people in the company I am working for. Like I've said, I worked long and hard for this month and I need a good rest. So, I would need a long vacation after this. And I just don't know where I should be going. Well, that's in the near future. So, I have been helping these people in my company and it seems that I am not being awarded for so much. I would need to think of better ways to fulfill my life and make use of my life. And I guess I helped a few new people I met think better of their lives and hopefully be better soon in their future endeavors.


Whom Should I Say "Thank You" This Month?
I should thank the people that are new in my life. They gave me a good ending for this month. Making a pleasant end for the month of August, I guess without them, in this post... I would not have anyone to thank. I wish I could know them more and I hope I can see them in the future.