Chasing the Unknown
I have been thinking long and hard about what I would be doing after my contract ends in 2018. 2018? It's too far away and I have been thinking about it! What's wrong?
One thing, I have lost my passion. I enjoy what I've been doing for a long time, but there is just something wrong with what I am in right now. The passion is gone for most of my work and I can't drag myself to work if I don't have passion to what I am doing. It seems that no matter what we do, there is no support from people that are supposed to help us get through the misery.
The environment has to change, the people has to change and the way they run has to change. As we are doing our very best, it's just all problems from here on and it's all just talk and talk. Until we sacrifice things that are not supposed to. Why blame it on us, where the blame should go to you? When we pursue change, you are scared for change. The change we wanted are the things that can bring us in a better future, but what is it that stops you?
So, deciding that this would be the last one, now, is what I feel is right. It just shows that these people are not capable of building a brand, but are there to just prove everyone wrong. Rather than just merely talking, it is about time we act on things. There is always a need to sacrifice, which are not supposed to happen. I don't feel it is right, I don't feel the energy to work, I don't feel I can do much better than what I have done for the longest time.
For years, I dealt with people pushing me down, but it's always the passion that made me stay. I love what I am doing and that makes me enjoy it more than not liking it. Problems have been there from the get-go, but it built-up to where I can see that my passion has been quashed to pieces and no matter happens, it will just stay the same.
I have a duty to do, but then again, empowering people is what I want to happen. If you want to give them responsibilities, give it to them, fix their own problems. We are treating them like babies, it's not about the position I am holding right now, it's about empowering my people to be responsible and accountable for their actions. It's a long winded day and thinking of all the troubles they cause and fixing it for them, is like spoon feeding your child and wiping their bottoms.
It's a blessing in disguise though that a few people would not be traversing this field, though it is one of the reasons, I lost my passion. I lost my face to the people I wanted to succeed. I lost my face to the people who wanted a better life after their studies, I lost my face to the people who I know, I lost my face to people who are in the same passion as I am in. I have been pushed to the limit, to the extremes and it angered me for what I would need to do, which is not my job. Another sacrifice.
2018 is a long way to go, but I hope it will be sooner than later.
One thing, I have lost my passion. I enjoy what I've been doing for a long time, but there is just something wrong with what I am in right now. The passion is gone for most of my work and I can't drag myself to work if I don't have passion to what I am doing. It seems that no matter what we do, there is no support from people that are supposed to help us get through the misery.
The environment has to change, the people has to change and the way they run has to change. As we are doing our very best, it's just all problems from here on and it's all just talk and talk. Until we sacrifice things that are not supposed to. Why blame it on us, where the blame should go to you? When we pursue change, you are scared for change. The change we wanted are the things that can bring us in a better future, but what is it that stops you?
So, deciding that this would be the last one, now, is what I feel is right. It just shows that these people are not capable of building a brand, but are there to just prove everyone wrong. Rather than just merely talking, it is about time we act on things. There is always a need to sacrifice, which are not supposed to happen. I don't feel it is right, I don't feel the energy to work, I don't feel I can do much better than what I have done for the longest time.
For years, I dealt with people pushing me down, but it's always the passion that made me stay. I love what I am doing and that makes me enjoy it more than not liking it. Problems have been there from the get-go, but it built-up to where I can see that my passion has been quashed to pieces and no matter happens, it will just stay the same.
I have a duty to do, but then again, empowering people is what I want to happen. If you want to give them responsibilities, give it to them, fix their own problems. We are treating them like babies, it's not about the position I am holding right now, it's about empowering my people to be responsible and accountable for their actions. It's a long winded day and thinking of all the troubles they cause and fixing it for them, is like spoon feeding your child and wiping their bottoms.
It's a blessing in disguise though that a few people would not be traversing this field, though it is one of the reasons, I lost my passion. I lost my face to the people I wanted to succeed. I lost my face to the people who wanted a better life after their studies, I lost my face to the people who I know, I lost my face to people who are in the same passion as I am in. I have been pushed to the limit, to the extremes and it angered me for what I would need to do, which is not my job. Another sacrifice.
2018 is a long way to go, but I hope it will be sooner than later.
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