It's Been Awhile

It seems not real that I am now having conversation with you again for the longest time. I don't know why I decided even to talk to someone I felt betrayed with, but I guess the feeling has been there lingering around me all the time. Though seems not real, I can say that I am more comfortable talking to you as the days go by. Well, I promised to you that I would love you until things just happened between us. Things you may have forgotten along the years because of what happened to you.

It seems not real that I am beginning to feel happy and thinking of seeing you again for the longest time. I thought there would be not be a day that we will meet again as I already told myself of cutting the ties between us. But I guess, I'll have another try at what seems to be real years ago can be rekindled in a few months time. It's near the end of what I felt was hardships and of what I thought was betrayal. I just don't know why I asked you to meet once I have paid all my dues. 

I decided long time ago just to leave the past behind and keep mum on what you have forgotten, because I wanted to leave my past behind and move forward. Now, why am I thinking of coming back and telling you the truth behind the stories of our lives, of what really happened between us. I don't know how it would work out once I share with you the past, but I felt it is my obligation to tell you because you were the meaning of my life before, until you let me go.

It's been awhile that I have thought of writing about you again, I don't know why I am doing things that I feel would work out someday. I feel optimistic of the future, I feel glad I asked you out once everything is settled between us. I feel a new chapter in our books will be uncovered though I am wishing for a better future, I hope it is the one that I really wanted to. Things may just go as planned or not, but what I know is that I decided to give it one more chance. 

As my friend's advice, I should tell her what happened, it is the right thing to do. You ought to know the truth, now it would be on you if you would believe what I will say or reject me one final time. Things may not be the same as before, but I hope it would better than before and I hope it can work out in the future. I'm keeping the faith, the last draw that I have for what was toppled with problems, headaches, and failures. I hope in the end it would be a fairy tale ending for us.