A Chance I Give Myself

It was like that, I sent the sent button for her to see. A chance to give myself to TRULY fall in love with the one that truly deserves the love I can give. But that chance is not yet a given, it needs her to say YES and until that time I need to wait for something I have waited for a long time.

Like I told her, I've met some who may deserve the love I can give, but in the end I wanted her to be in my life. A chance I give myself to BE the one I can be and to be with her until we part ways again in the skies above. I learned how hard it is to be in a relationship and to maintain the same thing, but it's worth the risk. Because she is worth the risk.

I left with a heavy heart years ago and tied myself to whimsical life of this trail I'll not mention, with all the doubts in my head it was cleared off by someone who help me realize that I should give a chance for myself to be happy again, because I owe it to myself. Life has always been difficult in terms of relationships (or the lack of) for myself, but I'll push forward and be happy again with someone.

I don't know if she will give me a chance, but I've decided to give myself a chance to TELL her that with all the years that passed, in the end at the bottom of my broken heart, there was HER. All the positives outweigh the negatives, it was hopefully DESTINY showing me the way to self-fulfillment. In the midst of the day, I decided on telling her my intentions.

A deep connection between us made all the difference, with what had happened to her in the past it was this deep personal connection we shared together that made me realize how she is worth the RISK, the same risk I made when I decided to be with her for the rest of my life. Why? Because of this connection, I learned to bring her back in my life and once more love her, in the same way I loved her before. 

I've been with a lot of things in my life and why would I keep myself wondering in the wild, where somewhere in this world, there is someone who knows me better than anyone else. We had struggles, we had arguments, but with all those, we still stick together until one day I lost her. Things changed, I changed, I became weak, but I want to give myself a chance to be strong again. I owe it to myself, because I wnt to love her again with all my heart. 

The connection between us will never be forgotten as I lost my Mom, but my Mom had a new daughter. I was happy for them to have seen each other, while my Mom was still here. I want to thank the Queen of my life to give me the heart to forgive and take this chance I am giving myself to fall in love again... with her.