At This Time...

So, while I am surviving in this hard times there a few times that I think of who can be that special one I can be with. Will that person be somewhere I am not there? Will that person be the person I know but is afraid of telling her? Will that person be the one I loved before but is scared that she would leave me again? Or will there be no one who can accept me to be the better half?

As I got busy with days of searching for new opportunities and ways of getting money, I lost my way and forgot about writing. Now, is no different from other days, but just needed to look for ways to keep happy in the desperate times I am in. Something that can make me feel me, the person who loves talking about anything under the sun... well under the moon...

Days and months have passed and it's already the fourth month of the year and I really feel tired of 2017 and just wanted to be in the next year. Well, when this would be normal? I just don't know. And through all of this, people don't understand what I am feeling and what I need to do. Had a call from a friend the other day of going to this place, well I guess it's time for me to keep moving forward. I had this conversation of having my own, but then again it stops there. Looks like the search is non-existent for months now for a 100 companies they don't need a foreigner. So, what gives?

Anyway, I'm supposed to talk about something else and went back to the struggles I am in. So, this is happening again and again. Once I talk about what makes me feel happy, it goes back to this. So, that's it for now!