I Saw An Old Number...

Just as my day would end, I found an old number that is familiar, though it's not yours your face suddenly shows up and I remembered how we talked for long hours every single day. And how ignorant I was not telling you that I have fallen in love with you. So, when I did, you shut the door at me and would never ever have a contact with you again.

It's sad think that way, but if we are not meant to be, we will not be. I would rather not think about the day and the rest of the years you will ignore me, but I rather think about the happy moments we talked over the phone, just us and being happy until we call it a night. Then we will do it again the next day, again and again for a year or two. It's like we didn't have any assignments to do, it's like when I wanted to call you, you were always available to talk. I was happy and I feel that you were happy too.

Yes, I fell in love with you, but you and my bestfriend were a couple. It didn't stop me though to just have a good night talking to you over the phone for hours. We will just talk about our day, how it's been and talk about anything under the sun (well, under the stars and moon). Now, as I remember, or not remember how did I get your phone number or numbers. Well, it was great knowing both your phone numbers as I had the pleasure always talking with you all through the night.

I will always remember giving you gifts, but I always remember one sunny day, you and your friends were in Baker Field just in front of the auditorium. I gave you a birthday gift and I was shaking up to that point and you smiled at me. I will never ever forget that smile you always gave me. But, I was stupid for not telling you how much I loved you, because I was scared of you rejecting me. I wish I have told you earlier, when we were still in school. But I was really stupid and naive.

I wished I can turn back time and tell you that I loved you earlier. The days, weeks and months we were talking on the phone. When all the day has to end calling you and I would have the biggest smile on my face. When the time to end the call, it will take as more than 30 minutes just to say goodbye to each other, not giving up or giving in on who will bring the phone down first. And when we decided to put down the phone, either you or me is still waiting on the other line and we will laugh at each other and say that I thought we will call it a day. Then our conversation will continue. But when we finally call it a day and says our goodnight to each other, I found a smile and I found love.

And how will it be when I am now just alone and you are happily married. I will just be happy for you and I will continue on to search for the one who will make my heart warm again.