Something's Changing

Just one more day to end the first half of the month of January 2018 and it seems a great start. A few bumps here and there, but all in all it was nice to start with a good note. As 2017 was just mostly bad luck and forgettable moments, I am hoping this start for the new year will continue on. Things are changing, lifestyle changed, perspectives in life changed, happiness revitalized, worries lessened, and eventually with positive outlook in my life, I would enjoy the journey. It's a long way to go, but I am glad to have started this year with people who I know can make my life great again, whether it is at work or someone outside my circle of friends and out of my comfort.

Though my still grasping what my work is right now, questions about how it would be in the future, I am serious though of making an effort to build my own life (or empire). It's not how slowly I start, but how I am willing to build and succeed with the plans I made.  Frustrations are there, but we just need to keep moving forward, though it's hard at times and tensions of uncertainty are there, I feel that I can be successful at what I want to do with my life. I really want to start now, and I hope I can do it. I hope I can see my cards unfold as I've already started and I just need to continue pushing forward.

As I stopped thinking for a moment of my dreams at the end of 2017, I found someone. I found someone who makes me feel that it might be right to stop for a moment, look at the beauty in life, and be with her and enjoy the moment together. It's a few weeks now of knowing her and it's not been easy for me as I have forgotten to be with someone. I have forgotten how to take care of someone. I have forgotten to feel good about someone. I have forgotten to smile for someone. I have forgotten to miss someone. Hopefully in time, I would remember the feeling and the way to be with someone and make someone special.

I didn't have a lot of friends and have kept a short list of my true friends, most of whom are my childhood friends. People can be deceiving, they may act friendly to you until they need something from you and in the end they will turn their back against you, in that moment you know they are not true to you. Unfortunately, I was a prey of a lot of people in the last year. They may be people I knew for a long time or new acquaintances, but it doesn't matter when they pushed me to the limit. But with all of that, I have buried the hatchet and started anew. Soon all of those who I thought are real friends will also be unchained, so negativity in my life will be removed.

I may have wronged people along the way and I hope soon I can make good of what is left from me. I hope that I can turn the tables. Just to keep my conscience and good nature in me. Things I know they would not understand, but with the things I have done or not, I hope with this year, I can make a difference and try to complete my unfinished business. As I need this to move on and it is just right and just to give back. I just hope it would be sooner than later. As I hope good fortune and great life will come back to my life and to you all.