The Song, Her Song
I came across the song that she wanted to use for our wedding and now it's on loop while I write this blog for what was supposed to be the happiest moment in our lives.
Some people know that we came so close to tie the knot and even my family approved of her and in the same way I am with her family. It's been almost 8 years that it would've happened and probably I would not be where I am right now. Times have changed, our lives apart was not easy at first, but through the years it became easy for me. Accepting the reality that we are not meant for each other.
When we became a couple, a few days later we talked about getting married and it was, yes! We will get married, but with the struggles we faced at that time, our relationship broke apart. People who knew me, know how I felt when we broke up. They knew how hard it is for me to have given everything for her. The risk I took to be with her, the pain I went through asking her hand again. The sleepless nights knowing I will not be with her anymore.
Life would have been different now. We might have one child right now, probably only 2 or 3 years old. As we planned to be together, just the two of us without kids for a few years, until we decide to have one of our own. A plan that would be perfect for the lives that we have chosen, a life enjoying the moments as a couple, as husband and wife. It was a perfect plan, but in the end, it was not meant to be.
We also planned for our retirement, we wanted a beachfront house in the Philippines. We wanted to hear the waves from the shore, the everlasting sunrise and sunset, and a relaxed living, having our time together with our kids. The life we wanted, the life she shared with me and the life I shared with her. But, as I think of it, I still want to have that life, even not with her, but for someone who would love me for who I am. Someone I can share my life with in the future.
Our relationship was a struggle, it was a long distance relationship, but no matter how hard it was for me, I never gave up on us. Even the skies turned gray, even the shores became dry, I promised to be with her. But, with everything I tried to do, she left me and didn't give me another chance again. Life was hard at that point in time. Life as I knew it was not happy anymore. I lost my passion in life, I lost my passion at work, I lost my passion to love again.
Now?
As I continue to live my life, there would be someone else, someone else who will trust the words I say. Someone who I can call my love.
PS. I didn't write this one because I still love her, I just heard the song and remembered the times we were together. But, I have no intentions of asking her again. She moved on and I also did. I just want to thank her for the times that she trusted me and most importantly, I want to thank her for loving me.
Some people know that we came so close to tie the knot and even my family approved of her and in the same way I am with her family. It's been almost 8 years that it would've happened and probably I would not be where I am right now. Times have changed, our lives apart was not easy at first, but through the years it became easy for me. Accepting the reality that we are not meant for each other.
When we became a couple, a few days later we talked about getting married and it was, yes! We will get married, but with the struggles we faced at that time, our relationship broke apart. People who knew me, know how I felt when we broke up. They knew how hard it is for me to have given everything for her. The risk I took to be with her, the pain I went through asking her hand again. The sleepless nights knowing I will not be with her anymore.
Life would have been different now. We might have one child right now, probably only 2 or 3 years old. As we planned to be together, just the two of us without kids for a few years, until we decide to have one of our own. A plan that would be perfect for the lives that we have chosen, a life enjoying the moments as a couple, as husband and wife. It was a perfect plan, but in the end, it was not meant to be.
We also planned for our retirement, we wanted a beachfront house in the Philippines. We wanted to hear the waves from the shore, the everlasting sunrise and sunset, and a relaxed living, having our time together with our kids. The life we wanted, the life she shared with me and the life I shared with her. But, as I think of it, I still want to have that life, even not with her, but for someone who would love me for who I am. Someone I can share my life with in the future.
Our relationship was a struggle, it was a long distance relationship, but no matter how hard it was for me, I never gave up on us. Even the skies turned gray, even the shores became dry, I promised to be with her. But, with everything I tried to do, she left me and didn't give me another chance again. Life was hard at that point in time. Life as I knew it was not happy anymore. I lost my passion in life, I lost my passion at work, I lost my passion to love again.
Now?
As I continue to live my life, there would be someone else, someone else who will trust the words I say. Someone who I can call my love.
PS. I didn't write this one because I still love her, I just heard the song and remembered the times we were together. But, I have no intentions of asking her again. She moved on and I also did. I just want to thank her for the times that she trusted me and most importantly, I want to thank her for loving me.
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