Caught in the Middle

As time passes by, from the time we first we sent each other messages to the time we first had our date to the last time we saw each other, even though there was a time that I felt disconnected, I tried again to know if you would be willing to know how I felt for you (though I don't share that so much to you). And you know what, things may seem so blurred right now for me, not because of you, but the time I will be far from you.

Once I face reality again, how would my life be? Will you be willing to wait? Will you come to where I am and be together? As I look forward to the things that may happen, I feel detached from all people and it includes you, and it's not because I don't feel anything for you. I just don't want to repeat the past. I learned and tried to live that way and in the end I will be alone.

As I am caught in the middle of my decisions, I hope you will understand how I feel right now and you have the patience in me. I know that it will be hard, I know that struggles will find our way, I know that being apart is not anyone wish for. But this is the reality (will be our reality)... if ever we will be together. If ever.