Journey to the Unknown

As much as I wished that it would never happened, it did. I just don't know why, but it just did. I never had imagined that things will turn out this way. With so little time we had together, I never have thought that this is what we will be having. Though exclusivity is not there yet and I don't know it would happen. I'm just happy that the times we are together, you focus on me and not other things (like your phone).

Life is just so playful that knowing you was something I never knew it would happen. It's just been over a month and just imagined it would be hard for me to adjust. Most of my life, I was in solitary, I seldom want for someone to enter my heart, because of the hurt that I had before. It still lingers, trust in an issue always, I always think that in time, you will leave me as well. I've been so much alone that it's hard for me to adjust with emotional perils of life with someone. Something, I still need to get used to while I am not with you. 

I've learned about your troubles and your struggles in life, though I know there are still a lot of rocks to be un-turned. Things I feel that is true, but I'm just letting the flow of what we have right now take us to the course that you have left closed as of the moment. Whether it is true or not, (wishing though it is not), I hope that your life will be successful and I hope I will be there to help you to be where you want to be. 

The journey that I am living right now, with you, is still at its early stages, things that we might find with someone else can still change our minds about each other. Though I am afraid of losing you, it seems that keeping you is a struggle that I am having right now. It's not easy for me as I have my life to think of. I have things and plans in my life that one day, I may not be there for you. And probably that is the time that you will leave me for someone else.

There is no sense of urgency in life, I may look for someone else and get married. But, for now the journey to the unknown is what I am right not, with you and no one else. We might find someone else, better than each one of us, but what I know is that you make me feel happy when you're with me and I long for you when you're not there beside me.

My journey to the unknown is with you. iloveyou.