Loving is Not Easy

A few more days and I will have a chance to meet my past. I am happy that I will meet her and get to know how she is doing. I don't know what to expect on that day, but what I know is that by the end of the day we will stay as friends.

There were a few attempts to see each other in the past and we did, but I know that we are better off as friends. People will see it as a time that I will ask her out again, but what I feel and know is that we will remain as the way we are now. Friends.

I few stones are left to be unturned, but I will let it remain as that. Remembering the past makes me happy, knowing that I am capable of loving and someone had once loved me for who I am. Our differences similarities makes our relationship turn sour. But no matter what, the past I had, was the time I thought I was going to get married.

I have taken the risk to love and left the life I had for her. Things would have been better, but I never imagined that I will be alone and broke. we had good times, but we had bad times too and being me, I know I will never forget the hurt. I have forgiven myself to have loved so much, but I was happy to prove that I was capable of loving her.

Now, I am happy. I know that my happiness can be shattered by just a word. But I am willing to take another risk for someone else, because of the times that I felt, I was me. I was comfortable and she was to me. I know our circumstances, I know she is right now. But I'm willing to wait, willing to take a chance to get loved by someone again and most importantly, I'm willing to get hurt again.

It sounds cliche, but if your willing to love, you must be willing to accept the fate. You are willing to accept the truth. You are willing to be happy with her, comforting her when she is down, understanding your differences and similarities, because what matters is that you accept her, the whole her.

I have opened again my heart to love somebody else and what's important for me now is to be patient in love, willing in love, happy in love.