Run Out of Love

It was just a normal day of work until I sat along with my friends. While talking about relationships, a friend blurted out that I don't know how to love anymore and it's all about me who I keep thinking about. The matter is, I agree to what he told me. I have lost and run out of loving someone else other than me. It's sad and hard to admit that I just can't truly love someone anymore.

Well, a relationship gone bad would be the reason for me not believing in relationships after all. I believe the three things that made me run out of love are...

1. Trust
I really can't fully trust the words of people I have grown to like. It's hard when I still remember the words "You are my love" when it is not so. For now, it's not even like that... it's just a simple question that I asked can't be without a hint of doubt when answered.

2. Happiness
I can't find the true happiness now for myself, so I can't share it to someone else. It is hard when all my happiness were drained the years of waiting for the love of my life, until I have given up not only on relationships, but my inner peace.

3. Doubt of Self-Worth
I was never good enough, I was never been a good person. This is what I had to endure in a broken relationship I had. Until now, I still find myself asking, if I am worthy to be even talking to someone about love and relationships.

Maybe one day, I can find a way to fully heal and love someone. Touch someone's heart and say "I Love You". But for now, I would need to look for ways to fall in love again and truly say to myself I am happy and worthy to be with someone, and to trust her with all my heart.

Now, I just need to agree to what I have become, of not knowing how to love someone...