It looks like a long journey...

It looks like a long journey again for me. As it hurts me every single day we don't talk and feel terrible about what I did, I always think of saying sorry to you. But I know it would take time for me to tell you personally. On your own time, when you are ready to accept my apologies. But I hope it would not be too long. 

I have broken your trust, you hate me now and want to kill me. I am sorry... I really am. The longer it takes for us to talk, the harder it is to close the wounds I made. But I hope it would not be too long. 

I try to keep in touch, but I know you don't want to. I have no pride now. I am shattered. I am scared. I am lost. I am sorry.