Month-End Reflections

With the end of my birthday month, I am deciding to ask myself 8 self-reflection questions. So, this is just the start and will hopefully I can make myself do this on a monthly basis starting every month end. It's a commitment that I am willing to pursue that would hopefully would have  a positive effect on myself.

So, let's start with an Intro...

It's the end of my birthday month, November, and I am now at the age that most of my friends are married and when I see my cousins, and even nephews and nieces are married. Looks like I have lost the battle of having a relationship of my own or am I just afraid of having another relationship because of the past I had. Well, I tried, but not hard enough to look for the love I have. As always, I only want to go to a relationship that will be a lasting piece to my journey while I am still here on this place called, Earth.

Why Am I Here?
I am living this dream of being successful, having my own business, not to be rich, but to have my own even I would work my ass out to build a business from start. Even knowing that struggles will be there, I would be fully satisfied with creating something that I would be proud of. It is the greatest fulfillment that I would have in my life. I have planned myself even before I graduated to have my own business, and until now I am still working on it. I just hope it will be true. I just hope.


What Did I Learn This Month?
I learned that no matter I want to be alone, I would be longing for someone to love me truly. True as the saying says "No Man Is An Island". No matter how I want to be independent and alone, I still would love to be with someone who will love me. Having a daily friendly chat with an old friend keeps me wanting to love even more. I know we can't be in the end, I hope that in time that I would have someone to call my true love.


Am I Carrying An Excess Baggage In This Month That Can Be Dropped?
The burden of wanting to get rich. I am now doubting myself of wanting something, though it is what I wanted, and would make me happy in my life. I always doubt myself in dealing with people and it makes me not wanting to do what I went into. Though I am here already, I would continue on but not pushed so hard that would stress me out in the end. As I told a friend before, I just can't accept losing and if this just goes on like this, it's better to quit now.

What Is The Greatest Achievement I Did This Month? 
I had a big opening of heart to people and it's all because of the seminar I attended. I opened up myself to people I would not usually say anything, much more of what I feel. Though I know I still need to work on it and it's an activity that we did, I am happy that I overcame the fear of showing my emotions and true feelings to other people. It's something that I hope I can do more and I know it needs more time. I just need to try.

What Is the Biggest Time Sink I Did This Month?
Losing passion. I have lost passion in things that I was doing. Whether it is my work or the business that I am in right now. I am losing passion for what I am doing. I just don't why, I just lost it. And with losing passion, I have been losing the urge to make an effort to do things that I loved to do. I have been losing time of being happy with my life. I have been losing time to be successful.

What More Should I Do For Next Month?
Be aggressive in the things I want in my life. I know I can do better with work. So, this is what I will be doing. I am struggling with what I am doing now, and I need to more focused. I need to have this mindset, be focused. I just need to work out again on my focus on things because I really felt losing valuable things and time that I can someone I want to be. So, being focused and aggressive in the things I really want in my life would be something that I would work out on for next month.

Who Did I Help This Month?
I helped a friend who needed a huge favor from me. I helped a friend who is in dire need of advice. I just hope you will settle all the things that you need to and hopefully it would work out. I hope all the things I shared with you in our conversation will inspire you to fight for what is right and the right thing is heaven's gift for you. It's not all the riches of the world can make you happy, but it's the family and friends who will support you. Just remember your family will always be with you, no matter what. Just be strong!


Whom Should I Say "Thank You" This Month?
I would like to say thank  you to the two persons who remembered my birthday without Facebook. Well, I pulled out my birthday alert for Facebook and that is why no one knew. But I am happy that someone remembered me on my birthday. I know I wanted it to be hidden to know, but I was sad that I only have two who knew. But I'm happy that the persons who remembered my birthday are the persons who are really close to me. I know for one person, I have drifted away and I am thankful that you never forgotten my special day. I hope I can have the heart to say sorry, for now THANK YOU. As for the other person, well you never failed to greet me once until we became close, you have made a lot of progress but you need to be more accountable and responsible. I know you can do better! THANK YOU!

So, that is the end of my first MONTH-END REFLECTIONS! I hope I can continue (and not forget) this.