Month-End Reflections (June 2016)

It's a bit late, I'm really working tirelessly these past few weeks and have not taken off for almost a month now and will be the same until next week. So, this month I was given a task to do something I have done before at work, which I am not much elated with. Though I know I can do it, it's just that the people around is the problem, too many problems, people who can't think for themselves, people who have issues, it's tiring to hear all the excuses when you are doing something to just make the system afloat.

Now, the positive part of my life now is that, when I started this month-end journal, I have reached a few things that I wrote in here. I had made progresses in projects and in my life, I have made a few decisions that I am happy with, though sometimes temporary, it is a good thing that I am keeping my mind on what I need to focus on next coming month. I'm happy and I think I can do better and be brighter in the future through this!

Why Am I Here?
I am here to fulfill my dreams and be happy with my life. Whether I have someone beside me or just me. I am just elated of what is happening in my life, through there are a few bumps and bruises along the way. I have been working for a long time and I'm hoping soon that it will change, that is the plan and I am looking for a bright future for it. I made the last month about looking for someone, this month, I'll go back to thinking of making money!


What Did I Learn This Month?
I learned that when loving someone, it's about communication. It's hard to find your way to love someone who just don't want to communicate. If people are looking for a relationship, this comes with communicating with people, if you just can't communicate and it's just me trying to communicate, then it would not work. So, now I will lay down my guards and not think about it again. I failed again for looking for it, but I will be happy to look for just making money than having a relationship.


Am I Carrying An Excess Baggage In This Month That Can Be Dropped?
Well, it started with a positive note while looking for someone I can be serious again in love, but in the end... nothing. So, what can I do, I just forget about it and move on. Why waste my time trying to communicate when I can just be myself again and do whatever I want. I really don't need to love I think. I just need money to be happy. Well, this month would be such a good thing for that and will be looking forward for my plans of expanding my finances.


What Is The Greatest Achievement I Did This Month? 
Well, my greatest achievement was, I guess being asked to run the show for the operations of our company. I never liked it and never will I, but it's something I was asked to do. I am here doing my best to do the responsibility I was given. Though much trust is given to me, I feel helpless at times as no one feels the passion of working. It's not about the company, just the passion of working. I guess one of the managers is right, better to look for foreigners to work. I guess that would be the best thing to do.


What Is the Biggest Time Sink I Did This Month?
Though at first it was fun, but in the end, I was like begging for it already. I rather not, because I will just be frustrated in the end. I guess it would be great to look elsewhere, but not for the coming month as I have other plans for July. So, I guess personal life will come to halt again and my projects will come again as a priority. I was happy, but then again, I was neglected and I hate to be neglected.


What More Should I Do For Next Month?
Focus on making money! Money! Money! Money! In doing so, I can have my other plans in place. I know that it will be a long road, but my plans must continue to make money. Forget about relationships and continue on my plans to enrich my cashflow. So, here I am again and laying out the plans for a brighter and better future for myself.


Who Did I Help This Month?
Well, I helped someone to have the passion to cook. It was fun having helped someone to do something you are fond of doing as well. It's such a happy moment when I reach out and be appreciated.


Whom Should I Say "Thank You" This Month?
I would thank my boss for now, as he gave me the opportunity to do something more with the company, though elated I had my reservations because I know what are the hardships of the new job I need to do. Well, I have been dedicated with my work (not the company), so I'll just continue on until the light of my passion fades.