In The Middle

I have been chatting anew with someone I thought I can be happy with, but half of me saying it would not work out like my previous relationship. I don't know but I feel like I'm the only one talking, though I understand she has no means of communicating immediately to me. I find her holding back, holding back what is on her mind and I don't know what keeps her being mum on my questions.

I'm in the middle of finding how it would be like to be with someone and just stop being silly and stay alone. What's holding you back? I don't know. Are you afraid like me to be in a relationship? Are you afraid like me that someone you love will leave you hanging? Are you afraid like me of getting hurt at the end? Are you afraid like me that being in a relationship is worse than being single? Are you afraid like me of trusting people to take care of your heart? What is it? What is it holding you back?

I have been single for a long time and I don't know how to take care of someone I love anymore, but I'll try. Because no matter what, I've been hurt, lost trust, been left, and depressed. I know a little of you, but I want to know more about you. If you would be the same as the one I was before or you'll be someone who I can trust my heart and take care of it. I want you to walk with me, I want you to see how it goes, I want just imagine if it would work.

I know a little of your hardships in life, but I am also wondering if it is true or not. I'll let you understand. I was hurt and I have lost trust in people playing me around. I have lost trust in people and take every chance they can to belie me. Things are hard, all of us have their own hardships, but are you will to give a chance to have someone enter you life to somehow make it a beautiful place. I am also longing for it, I don't know if it's you or someone else I will meet in the future. But you are there already for me, just a few more steps closer to know you better and I would know if the reason why I met you.

I don't know if God gave you to me as a friend, a lesson, a lover. I don't know if I will fall for you or if you will fall for me, but what I know now... God gave me you...