When Was The Last Time?

When Was The Last Time?

I never thought of one time falling back in love again, but I was faced with the reality that I can still love someone. With all that is happening in my life, I wasn't looking for someone who can make me feel loved, I intended to live my life and look for ways to reach my dreams that doesn't include someone else. I was happy to be alone with my life reaching my dreams one by one until I saw her.

But I know that she would not be with me, but in the back of my crazy head I still want her in my life. I never thought of having someone in my life again, but she came in my life with such happiness and love that I can feel from afar. It would not happen anyway for us, well as of now, I can't be with her, but hoping still that she would be happy with me.

Things are complicated as usual, and it seems hard to imagine with all the years of not falling for someone, then the inevitable happens and there is a wall between us. It seems like a punishment from above telling me, "I know your heart is there, I'll let you feel the love, but you can't have her". Then what is the purpose of knowing her? It's been years and I was so happy with my life then it became better because of her, but with a quick swing of the bat, I got hit on my face and fell down and died.

So, when was the last time? It's been years and I thought I already forgot how it feels to fall in love with someone. It's been years to feel happy this way and my heart is rejoicing. But, it's been years as well that I got heartbroken with all the frustrations and bad luck. It's been years that my heart ache this way, and I really don't feel that anyone can love me in return.

What Will I Do Now?

Just stay away and be happy, alone, because who am I to disturb your life, when you are happy with someone else?