A Prayer

As I again find myself in the struggles of my life, I turn back to my prayers (and others) to finally land a place where I belong. It's been a few weeks that I have so much time to think about my future plans, but it seems that with which I plan to go for now is too far and I don't think I'll be able to cope up in time. I don't think the people who put me in a very precarious situation will be able to help me out in anytime soon. So, what should I do? What are my options that I can do, to be out of this mess I am in now.

Things just ain't right for the past 4 months and I know for a fact that it would come to this, I was hoping I will find a new place but it seems I can't and seems I will not in here. So, what's the best thing to do? Will I just go back to where I'm from and start anew? But, finding time to rebuild what I have will take time and I need a fast solution for what I have now. I just want to find another way and it seems to slow in here and time is not my friend right now.

What shall I do when all the tides are against me? I can't seem to find my voice in here and it seems that the only way to fly back and find a better place for me. What if I sell of my investment even it has yet to start to mature? I guess, I would not have any choice if this happens. Things are not just working for me now and I need something to do now or else it would be too late for me.

With just one thing, it affects my entire life and it seems I don't get any help from above. Why is that? What shall I do now?