Would I Believe?

The last time I had missed someone like this was when we lost our Mom. So, would I believe that what I told you was truly destiny working or just because I hardly see my heart happy with someone? I've never tried so hard to find someone and at a random place I would see you and there was a spark that started between us. It looks like something that I am looking forward again when I see you over the weekend.

But I question myself, if this would work in the long run. I know what makes this difficult for me is the circumstances that both of us are in. Let's see and try, but as I said, when I say you... it's only you. Would you be serious when I ask you again or would you feel that I just wanted to say it? What if things turn out bad and would create more questions for me?

When my heart and mind can't decide, I feel terrible. My heart says yes and tells myself, just go for it, it would be worth it, but my mind questions my decision and doesn't believe in what my heart feels. I've been born for a long time now and it's long overdue of being alone in my life. I need to feel loved and I need to fill the emptiness in my heart and in my mind.

But, would I believe that this is true? Or just because I just wanted it to happen? Is this a wrong choice to feel this way or is it the best choice because I feel some spark in your eyes when you look at me. I was happy and glad to have met someone like you. But I know this might just be something I just dream of. Things may just be different, but I am willing to take the change again. I believe I will find the answer soon and I do hope I can believe in myself, believe in my heart and in my mind.