Seloso

I am jealous of men talking to you, because it breaks my heart when you feel happy with them. What seems to be doing well looks like the end of another straw. My heart is confused and my mind tells me to just let it go and move on from here. You made me feel great the first time we met and when I saw you again and had lunch with you, I realized that there is something special with you and the connection with me. I was happy and glad to have been with you.

But for the past few days, I turned myself away from you because of jealousy. What makes me wonder how it will be if you would just be open to me or what you've told me still lingers in your mind and is afraid of falling again. But why am I thinking of something else? Why am I thinking that I am jealous because of someone. So, we are supposed to meet and I feel tired, and just decided to call it a day and go back home. I feel detached, helpless and there's no one to talk to right now.

Bakit ba kasi nag seselos ako? Ano bang meron tayo? Diba wala? Eh, bakit ganun ang nararamdaman ko ngayon? Ilang beses ko ba kailangan sabihin sa'yo na seryoso ako at dahil dyan nagseselos na ako. At hindi ko kayang makita na wala sa piling ko. DI ba mali naman itong nararamdaman ko? Kasi ano ba tayong dalawa? Hindi naman tayo at kung makapagselos ako ganito na lang?

Ang problema ng seloso. Ang buhay ng seloso.