Soon I'll Go

I know all to well this scenario, I found someone who makes my day brighter and better, but what makes it hard is that soon I'll be leaving. Then the days, weeks and months pass by that I miss you. In time, even I promised to be by your side, you would leave me. So, that's why I keep my mouth shut, because it would hurt even more the second time, though it's a different someone. 

Though I enjoy your company and I felt how you laugh at my not so funny jokes and how sad you were knowing that I'll not be coming the other day. When the small gestures you do that makes me wonder how it is good to have you by my side. When we go out and have small talks even with other people with us. It makes me happy and I hope you feel the same way too. I just have one thing to say, I'd soon be going.

8 years ago, I had the same feeling for someone. As I moved back and forth (not that often though), it was hard to be with someone miles apart. I thought even the hardest times she would not leave me. I thought that she will not let go, even we are far apart. But even how much I say that I'd be going back, she still left me, I tried and I failed. It seems deja vu.

It was a very long time I trusted another relationship after that, the next one was not good at all. It was bad even for starters. Now, as I am learning to trust someone again, this comes. So, will I leave for the sake of my future (and dreams) or will I stay because I can be by your side? This makes me sad, it makes me feel betrayed by the times again. But, I know I'm still blessed and I hope I'd be blessed with someone again. But I hope you'll understand that I'd soon go.