Trip to Nowhere

I have always been a private person and the best thing about this blog gives me an outlet for me to share my life (and even my rants) to the future me. So, when I go back to this 30 years from now, when I have no energy to write anymore and the only way to enjoy my life alone is to read my experiences in life (and for my other blog… food) Along the way, we will encounter people in our lives who are meant to stay and others who will be just be in your past, whether good or bad, maybe a lesson or dream, maybe it brings you happiness and joy or sorrow and pain.

I was brought up in a way that I can be independent, choices I had to make (mostly) are because of what I did wrong in the past and learned from my mistakes. Though struggles are there when I was growing up, I had my parents helped me when I needed them. They supported me in passions I had in my life, never did I hear that I can’t do this and that. I never heard that my decisions were bad neither good, but I know they keep watchful eye on it. I studied hard to the capacity that I can and learned that the answers may just be one or two steps away from me.

I stumbled in my life a lot, whether in my studies, in the sports I played, in the jobs I had and having right now, in the dreams that I thought I can’t be, but I am satisfied with my life. Marriage was always there, I stopped looking for it. I just enjoyed my life being alone and strong. I enjoyed that I can choose for myself and not ask for any opinion from others. I know at times I still long for that one, but it was really never a priority for me. I just wanted to enjoy my life to the fullest, whether I am alone or with someone.

The life I chose is this (with the support I had from my parents). I went to far off in the Middle East to know that I can be who I can be today. I learned that the choices I make will lead me to live the life I wanted. I always made bad decisions, but with God who always presents me a plan for my life, these bad decisions are lessons that I know will help me to be a better me. I chose to be independent, I know that I am weak, but I know God is there with me to be strong.

I don’t know how long will be my journey, but what I know is that the dreams I have, the destinations I go to, the experiences I had and will have, will always be to the path of the unknown.

Who will join me in this path? I don’t know, I might be alone.
Who will encourage me to reach my destiny? I don’t know, I might be alone.
Who will be there when I need a helping hand? I don’t know, I might be alone.
Who will be there to go to nowhere? I don’t know, I might be alone.

But what I know, is that this trip to nowhere will lead me… to a life of my dreams.