What I Found About You

Dare I say to myself, falling in love so fast and neglecting every single sign that it was all about friendship. But how can I not fall if I feel a bit better with you than anyone else right now? I know in the end that I will just get hurt with what I feel for you, because we both know who your heart beats for.

Understanding everything makes no sense, we will get confused. I’d fly for someone in the past, who will stay in the past and will not be my present and my future. There are so many stories behind all my past that reliving it will not make me want to be there again.

Did I do something wrong for slowly falling for you? I just don’t know, but this is what I feel. I don’t know when it started, but you just make me feel natural. No pretentions, no barriers. When we talk, I’m not afraid to make mistakes. When we walk, I’m not afraid of tripping you. When we eat, I’m not afraid of having food on my face. When we look at each other, I just want to stare at you.

Everything makes sense now because you are totally different from my past. When I am myself to you, I am not with her. I don’t get nervous when talking to you but feel the other way around with her. You are just different, but what I felt years ago is the same feeling I am feeling right now when I asked her for her hand.

Must I believe that we can just be friends, because the earlier I know the hurt will I guess be easier to erase than prolong it, because I know that I will fall for you more. I’d be terrified if I lose because you are the second, I felt most love for. And it doesn’t matter who comes first, but what matters is that I feel that you are the last.

At last I found you, but I’m worried of losing you in the end, because you long for someone else. Would I just stop and be cold or continue and take the chance to be with you? Things can go wrong in an instant and even friendships can end rapidly. But who would not love you?

Having you beside me will fill up the gaps in my heart. With all the struggles I had, looking for the one for years is difficult. But I realized that when I stopped looking for love, there you came, and made me unintentionally fall for you.

A few years more and I will reach the time that I will neglect the fact that I get married. But give me a chance. Give me a chance to prove to you that it is worth it. Just let me be the one to make you feel happy, forever.

Letting go of the love I had was difficult, you know that. And I know it will be the same for you. It will be hard for me to let go of you. As much I wanted this to be fast, I long for a relationship that can last for a long time, until our last breath.

Keeping my promises is only for the people I love, loved and will love. But when decided to fall for you, I promised myself that you are the only one and no one else. I promised to myself that even we are apart, you are the one that I look for.

It may be difficult for you to understand right now and it’s difficult for me to explain why. But what I know that falling for you was just like a caterpillar budding to become the most beautiful butterfly. A butterfly, who is beautiful inside out.

Times like this are the times I become irrational, but for you I am natural. Nothing has changed in my attitude towards you, but what changed was that my heart keeps on calling you, every single time, every single day, every sunrise and every sunset.

And to end, we both know the stars are kind to us, because the love we share will be like no other. A true soulmate connection. We are so in tuned with one another that words don’t need to be spoken to know exactly what the other feels or needs. We never want to lose the love we share.